Broken scars Healed wounds

Hi everyone I wrote this and I don’t know anything about this subject but I felt compelled to write about this Abuse. There are women out here who are living in secret. They smile and pretend that everything is okay but it’s not but in behind closed doors they are treated brutally by someone they thought loved them. So they cover up their faces with makeup so the neighbors won’t see. Or they tell people they fell that’s why they have all those bruises. They think they did something wrong or they feel so unworthy that they don’t deserve real love. To all the women who go through you are not alone God is with you to take you by the hands and to break the chains. So I pray to anyone who knows anyone going through this to reach out and comfort them and let them know they are loved. This poem is like a letter or when you confront your abuser and talk to them about how they made you felt.

I felt I was at war with you everyday you tore my heart apart with the words that you said I didn’t know how long I could go on this way but I know I couldn’t stay

You treated me like I was nothing you made me feel unloved and not wanted you never really cared for me I was just another woman to fall into your snare using sweet words so I would be unaware

I loved you with everything I had but your love turned into bruises your sweet words turned into poison I felt like I was drowning gasping for air but each time I looked up no one was there

As I looked in the mirror I didn’t see the woman I once was I saw a broken, lost, depressed woman who doesn’t know where to go or where to turn all I could do was pray and hope I could get away

I looked at myself with a busted lip a bruised eye a broken arm my body was in so much pain but not as much pain as my Spirit as it felt it was being weighed down with chains

Giving you everything and all you gave me was your anger and hate making me feel less of myself that I created my own inner hell

The day I finally got away from you I kept thinking was he right about me? am I so unworthy that I can’t make it without him on this journey?

So during my journey I prayed I asked God to cure me of this doubt and to not go back to you He let me know I am loved and wanted and that love is not at the end of a fist it’s kind it won’t play with your mind it will bring out your beauty deep inside

I still have the scars that you put on the outside of me but on the inside the chains have been broken I am no longer your captive He has given me new life I am free from all your anger and strife

I do pray that one day you will give your anger to Christ so He can take it away. I forgive you for all the harm you caused me. I found Him through all this pain I pray one day you can find your way

 

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Spirit Versus Flesh

Hello everyone God Bless You!!! I wrote this because I have been struggling within my own flesh. Sometimes temptations cross your path just because something that looks good for you doesn’t mean it is. There was a incident that happened to me and I Praise Jesus nothing more came of it. Sometimes we desire something so much that we want to go out there ourselves and pick it but it doesn’t work that way. What God wants for us is so much better than what we want for ourselves so we have to be patient and not give into our desires but His. Its hard not to give into your flesh that’s why we  need to stay in God’s word and constant prayer. We are not alone God will fight our battles whatever the devil tries to throw at us we need to have on our Armor. There will be temptations on our paths we need to ask Him to give us His strength so we won’t go down those roads and follow the roads He wants us to go. Ephesians 6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God that ye may be to withstand in the evil day and having done all to stand.

People think just because I haven’t been through a lot I don’t know about struggle but it comes in many forms I have to stay in His word and pray to be firm

Wrestling with my flesh trying to kill it everyday with His word but sometimes I am weak and the physical tries to get stronger than the Spiritual to where I can’t think

Voices in my head trying to tell me it’s okay God will forgive you anyway that maybe true but I give up a part of myself God wants me to keep He doesn’t want me to fall or take that leap

Praying to God to be more of Him and less of myself Looking to Him to keep me out of the snares of my flesh So I won’t fall into despair with more than I can bear

It’s a struggle sometimes doing what’s right in His sight I need to keep praying and trying and not give up the fight

I am weak but He is strong with Him in me I can’t go wrong I cannot give into my own desires because that’s not what He inspires

Praying not to give into temptation each day to stay strong and hold on to not lose myself and be gone

I do not want to be led by my flesh but by His Spirit that guides my steps so that I can be kept

I want to be filled with His Spirit each day not looking to the world for validation because in Him I have true stabilization

My struggles will make me stronger I pray God lifts me so I won’t fall and if I’m down I get up and stand tall and that His Spirit is with me above all

 

Two-Faced

Hey God Bless everyone I hope everyone is having a blessed day so far. Rumors Lies Deceit Betrayed these are all words we are familiar with right? There are some people who pretend to like you and have respect for you but in all reality they will betray you when they get the chance. I have found out that even if you are there for someone and listening to their problems and trying to be there for them they will lie on you to others just to get themselves out of trouble. Two-Faced is about someone who you think is a friend but when push comes to shove they will turn their back on you in a heartbeat. It was inspired because I had someone who I thought was a nice person tried to lie on me to my boss about something I said that I did not ever say to her. See people will lie on you to get themselves out of a jam they put themselves in. I was angry and hurt but I’m not going to let that person steal my joy but I will continue to pray for them and hope they will no longer lie just to get out of something they did.  Matthew 5:44-45 But I say unto you Love your enemies bless them that curse you do good to them that hate you and pray for them which despitefully use you and persecute you That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and the good and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust

Why would you lie on me like I was your enemy when I tried to be your friend and be in harmony

When I was there for you and no one else wanted to hear you because they felt you were full of lies but me I didn’t want to feed into there despise

So I tried to convince others that you were a decent person but you turned on me without any concern or emotion

Telling lies to bring me down but I refuse to let you break me I will not sit down and let your lies shake me

Truth will always come to the light no matter how much darkness you pour the light will shine much more

So spread your lies speak all evil things against me I will not let your hate deteriorate my soul but I will pray and still love you as a child of God because that’s my main goal

Your deceit will not be my defeat I will rise above and still walk out into the streets with my heart still being upbeat

I have God on my side to fight all my battles so keep spreading your venom to all those who will hear but just know that my God is near

Lies will get you nowhere so let go of your malice bitterness, envy, and hate admit your wrong and get straight

I’m not looking for a apology for the lies you spoke I just pray you stop being so broken and let God come into your heart and be open

Stop drowning in a sea of lies stop living a life of despise let Him fix all your broken pieces allow Him to give you true peace

Time to choose

Hey everyone I hope all is well. Sometimes In life you have to make an important decision whether it be on your job, relationships, or things with  family we all have a choice. When it comes to our salvation with Christ that’s the most important choice you are going to have because it’s about your eternal life. You know there are a lot of people who believe in Christ and His words but a lot of times they still want to dabble in the world.  I remember how I had a different way of thinking like I accepted Christ and I thought could still do some of the things other people were doing. But it doesn’t work like that you have to make a decision you can’t be lukewarm. You or either on His side or the other side you can’t have the world and Christ too. You may lose some friends or some family with your walk with God but God won’t ever leave you and He’s always waiting for you. Matthew 6:24 No man can serve two masters for either he will hate the one and love the other or else he will hold to one and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and Mammon

When Christ sacrificed His life for me He did it so I could be free

Thinking about all things I do in the flesh not realizing how I am blessed to have someone sacrifice so much how is it in my heart I’m not touched?

I still want to do things my way thinking the world will have my back but in all reality they talk about me and think I am whack

Trying to have my cake and eat it too trying to have Jesus and the world too trying to serve two masters but it’s really a disaster

One by one my friends are leaving me out in the cold because I want more of Jesus this sinful life is getting old

I repented and never looked back at the life I led in my flesh I am a newborn creature and afresh ready to stand and be God’s best

Will I be perfect NO!!!!!!! will I stumble YES!!!!!! but I finally picked a side no more playing games I will go out and proclaim His Name

Stopped using excuses for my sins coming to the realization you can’t just say I’m about this life and be of this world you have to live it and be a doer of His word

Salvation is a gift from God not be taken lightly so be real and start to kneel don’t be a deceiver be a achiever be a light and be right be a true solider and stand up and fight

 

Echoes of a Childs Cry

Hey God Bless everyone on this Beautiful day I hope everyone is well. I want to talk about child abuse and share what happened to me the other day at my job. I saw this little boy couldn’t have been more than 8 or 9 with this person who claimed he was his father but he looked nothing like him.  But he was being mean and calling him a punk hitting him on the side of the head at first I thought he was playing with him but the look on the child’s face was fear and silence and he looked like he didn’t want him to touch him. So they went to another store and they came back and this child was like seriously in pain in tears it wasn’t the tears of a child with a temper tantrum or wanting a piece of candy he honestly looked like he was in pain and I just got a feeling something wasn’t right. I wrote this not only from the heart but I want to break the silence of what people try to hide in the dark. Little Children are so precious its painful to know what some of them go through everyday. There are children who live in silence everyday sometimes kids don’t tell because of fear and shame their behavior changes they feel no one will believe them. So if you get suspicious or get a feeling that something isn’t right don’t hesitate you could very well be saving a child’s life. And always as your kids what’s going on in school or with other relatives because you never know when kids start acting different please get hem to speak up I pray if anyone is going through this situation or knows a child going through this please say something. Matthew 19:14 But Jesus said suffer little children and forbid them not to come unto me for of such is the kingdom of heaven

A child who cries in pain it’s a hurtful sound to hear all you want to do is wipe away their tears

For some children they are happy and whole while others are hurt and don’t know where to turn

They are silent about their abuse because of fear thinking they will be blamed and feeling ashamed

Verbally, Mentally, Physically abused living in despair wondering how is this life fair this is too much for anyone to bear

Feeling threatened alone not knowing where to go trying to find the courage to speak but always feeling defeat

Looking for a glimmer of hope each day wondering when things will turn around their way

Hearing the echoes of the names they are called feeling the bruises on their legs and arms feeling mentally broken down wondering if they can forget the painful sounds

They always have their heads down never looking in someone’s eyes because they fear they will see the pain deep inside

Not wanting to go home wanting to escape each day hoping one day they will turn their back so they can go away

Thinking it’s their fault because their bad trying there best to be good so they won’t get mad

Trying to stay silent and good but the abuse keeps coming wanting to get out of this nightmare and just start running

Child abuse is real so we all need to start kneeling so God can start healing

Praying for each child who goes through this pain praying they will stand up with courage and not be ashamed

To not be silent and to tell someone what’s going on to not live in fear and to not shed anymore tears

 

 

 

Wake Up Church!!!!

Hey everyone God bless you I hope all is well!! I know I haven’t been on here for a while I just have been writing and working. We are so blessed to live in a country where we are free to worship the Lord and some places are not. I mean I hear some underground churches are so on fire for Christ it doesn’t matter what is going on around them they still burn with the Holy Spirit. I wrote Wake Up Church!!! to say we need to do better including myself. Sometimes we bring the world into the church we are supposed to bring the church into the world we are supposed to be a light to others. We can’t say we are for God one minute living in sin the next  it’s either you are for him or against him you can’t straddle the fence and think its okay don’t get me wrong we are still going to make mistakes this walk is not easy but God knows the heart He will know if you are truly for Him or just using Him. We need to use the opportunities that God gives us to spread His message all around the world because we are truly blessed to be in a place to speak Truth Love And Grace. Matthew 28:19-20 Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway; even unto the end of the world. Amen.

As I look at the churches of America we are lacking in spirituality and growing more in the physicality

In some foreign countries they speak the word with fire But some here twist the word and become liars

They worship underground in dungeons and cells while we have freedom to ring church bells

We argue and bring division amongst ourselves while they band together and get on board and become of one accord

Persecuted killed in blood in the streets for their faith not being afraid of the wrath of man getting in the way of their path

Some starving cold feeling all alone with nowhere to roam just waiting for Christ to call them home

Hiding and keeping their love for Jesus a secret while we are to say His name while some of us sit back and don’t make the claim

We are free to preach His word and spread it to the streets While they worship in silence hoping not to retreat

Churches of America Wake UP!!!!!!! and stop playing games you need to be truthful when proclaiming His name

Stop preaching a sugar-coated gospel for others gratification and start preaching truth for sanctification

We are blessed to be in a country where we can worship so freely while others stay quiet or they will pay dearly

Its time to Wake Up Church!!! and stop playing around and begin to stand on His Holy Ground stop straddling the fence and pick a side pick up humbleness instead of your pride

I want to thank Eclectic Contrarian for nominating me I really appreciate all the support and reading My blog God bless you my friend!!! theeclecticcontrarian.wordpress.com

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• Thank the blogger that nominated you and give a link to their site.
• Do a post to show your award
• Give a summary of how your blog started
• Give two pieces of advice for any new bloggers
• Select at least 15 other bloggers for this award
• Let each nominee know you’ve nominated them and give a link to your post

 

Well I started this blog because I wanted to encourage and lift up others letting them know you’re not alone. I mean many people think you should be perfect like you cant do anything wrong as a Christian but I can tell you that’s far from the truth. We all need Christ to show us the way and follow in His steps. And sometimes people don’t want to push the envelope and talk about the real deal about the things that are going on this world but they are still real at the end of the day you may try to push them into the dark but God always brings things to the light. My advice to other bloggers always write the truth stand your ground never let anyone bring you down because you have a voice God gave it to you keep using it for His will and His glory And always if you feel something strongly write it let out your pain your happiness your joy because more people relate to you more than you know.

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Sisterhood

Hey everyone I know I haven’t been on here in a while I’ve just been busy with my job and personal things. I want to talk about sisterhood and I wanted to talk about loving our sisters I know sometimes as women we can fight get on each others nerves or be hurtful towards one another but we are all women of God at the end of the day and we need to love one another better support each other protect each others heart. I know sometimes that loving is hard especially when things go wrong but we are sisters we are sisters in Christ. We don’t have to be blood to be family we are connected in such a stronger way. I love all my sisters I wrote this poem a long time ago about all the sisters that I know and love who are beautiful women of God and for the sisters of the future who I will come to know and love. Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 Two are better than one because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall the one will lift up his fellow but woe to him that is alone when he falleth for he hath not another to help him up.

My sister is someone who has a heart of gold Who’s love for Christ is so mighty and bold

She puts others first and never complains she always has a good word to say even when she’s in pain

When I’m in distress she’s always by my side to give me comfort and love without a judgmental eye.

Her beauty is more than just a pretty face its her soul that stands out which is her true beauty and grace

She’s a bold warrior for Christ always fighting on her knees pleading the blood for God to intervene

When people do her wrong she puts her pride aside and gives them a helping hand always with a loving eye

My sister is awesome my sister is beautiful but there’s more to her than just being a woman She’s a warrior for Christ she puts Him first Her boldness and light are her strength and her power

Enemies Limitations

Hi everyone God bless you!! I wanted to talk about your enemies limitations about you. A lot of times people will underestimate you they will say to you well you can’t to that you’re not good enough for this position or you’re not enough to do whatever God has called for you to do they will try to discourage you. A lot of times they do see what you’re all about and they are jealous of you because of your God-given abilities. I just want to say if there are people in your life like that don’t let them tell you the word can’t. Don’t let people limit you because of there narrowminded opinions if God put you in that position whether it be a job or at your church or even personal if God already ordained it no one I mean no one can come in between it. You just have to keep trusting and believing and have faith that God will work out everything for you. Your enemies you have to pray for them because there’s a lot of things going on inside of them and they let there jealousy and there hatred take over for no good reason. Just remember your enemies will say can’t but God says you can. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me

When people try to tell you what you can’t do you let them know what God can do

He can take someone who people see as unworthy and turn them into a prophet for His name and His glory

They try to tell you you’re not good enough in there eyes but in God’s eyes you are greatness don’t listen to them and there web of lies

When they go low you go high when they try to tear you down you don’t even bat an eye

Some people will try to limit you because they can see the greatness God has given you

They let jealousy and hatred consume there souls because the light you have inside is more precious than gold

There are people who want to see you fail so they can start gossiping with there friends and start telling tall tails

They will try to cut you down with all there vicious lies they will speak death over your life while looking at you in the eyes

You feel the need to speak up for yourself but the Lord tells you to be silent because He’s got your back.

Your enemies will not know you by the words you speak they will know you by your actions and the company you keep

Remember to rise above and show your enemies love to pray for them that God will mend there broken souls

Do not let your enemies tell you the word can’t because with God you can and He already knows you will be great

Where has the church Gone?

Hey everyone God bless you. My post today is about the church I know people don’t like to bring this to attention but it has to be brought to the light. There are some churches where they are not as welcoming as they should be I mean some people are just down right mean feel entitled or they are just there to make a name for themselves Or they act like they are better than you because they think they have conquered every sin and think there spotless and cant sin no more or they find someone else’s sins is so abominable that they make them feel like there’s no hope and try to condemn. Church should be a safe place where believers and non-believers come together to share there experiences without getting judged so harshly to help your brother or sister who is struggling to let them know they are not alone. A place to give Him praise and not get praise for yourself. I feel like the body  of Christ some ways is drifting away because sometimes we let the world into the church instead of the church in the world we let competition get the best of us I see some ministries just compete with one another I see the body bashing one another I mean as a body are we really called to do that? NO!!!! We are called to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ for anyone who thirsts for the knowledge of the truth. We need to be more of a light because we keep this up we are no better than the world.  From whom the whole body fitly join together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth according to the effectual working in the measure of every part maketh increase of the body unto edifying of itself in love Ephesians 4:16 

As I sit here in the comfort of my own space my mind wanders off into a different place A question in my head that keeps going on is where has the church gone?

A place where you should feel open arms instead there cold and try to cause you harm

They try to be nice to your face but they pray to God for you not to have peace

When you try to talk about your sins and all of your struggles instead of a helping hand they look at you as if you should be banned

Where has the church gone?

When did we start looking down at our sisters and brothers as if they were scum instead of helping them not to succumb?

Why are sins weighed more or less? when in God’s eyes none of us are the best

I should be able to walk in and feel like I fit in instead of feeling unworthy like I am condemned

Where has the church gone?

When love is measured in perfection instead of loving all imperfections

Do you stop loving me just because I went astray? or shouldn’t you pray for me that I find my way

Why are you teaching others to think higher than they are instead of teaching humbleness that will get them very far

Where has the church gone?

When you care more about silver and gold instead of Christ words and saving souls

Sugarcoating the truth to make others feel better instead of taking a chance and making God your stance

Bringing more of the world into the church instead of being a light and doing what’s right

The church is not a place to make a name for yourself its a place to feed souls and demolish strongholds

As a body we are not called to build a name for ourselves we are called to build the name Jesus so people can know Him for themselves