Hi everyone I wrote this and I don’t know anything about this subject but I felt compelled to write about this Abuse. There are women out here who are living in secret. They smile and pretend that everything is okay but it’s not but in behind closed doors they are treated brutally by someone they thought loved them. So they cover up their faces with makeup so the neighbors won’t see. Or they tell people they fell that’s why they have all those bruises. They think they did something wrong or they feel so unworthy that they don’t deserve real love. To all the women who go through you are not alone God is with you to take you by the hands and to break the chains. So I pray to anyone who knows anyone going through this to reach out and comfort them and let them know they are loved. This poem is like a letter or when you confront your abuser and talk to them about how they made you felt.
I felt I was at war with you everyday you tore my heart apart with the words that you said I didn’t know how long I could go on this way but I know I couldn’t stay
You treated me like I was nothing you made me feel unloved and not wanted you never really cared for me I was just another woman to fall into your snare using sweet words so I would be unaware
I loved you with everything I had but your love turned into bruises your sweet words turned into poison I felt like I was drowning gasping for air but each time I looked up no one was there
As I looked in the mirror I didn’t see the woman I once was I saw a broken, lost, depressed woman who doesn’t know where to go or where to turn all I could do was pray and hope I could get away
I looked at myself with a busted lip a bruised eye a broken arm my body was in so much pain but not as much pain as my Spirit as it felt it was being weighed down with chains
Giving you everything and all you gave me was your anger and hate making me feel less of myself that I created my own inner hell
The day I finally got away from you I kept thinking was he right about me? am I so unworthy that I can’t make it without him on this journey?
So during my journey I prayed I asked God to cure me of this doubt and to not go back to you He let me know I am loved and wanted and that love is not at the end of a fist it’s kind it won’t play with your mind it will bring out your beauty deep inside
I still have the scars that you put on the outside of me but on the inside the chains have been broken I am no longer your captive He has given me new life I am free from all your anger and strife
I do pray that one day you will give your anger to Christ so He can take it away. I forgive you for all the harm you caused me. I found Him through all this pain I pray one day you can find your way