Hey everyone I pray you guys are good. Well I know I’m not on here that much and I’m not much of a blogger sometimes and I apologize for that so much has been going on well I have Erin’s Poetry on Facebook and I have another page called Essence E Poetry where I will be going by Essence E my pin name that page is different I put out my poetry and other people can put out their art as well so i have been busy i did a radio show where i spoke some of my poems so its been busy but a blessing how God is opening up doors for me with my poetry I will be on another radio show at the end of next month which is such a blessing. I have been going through some emotions lately that I haven’t expected. I have feelings for someone and I don’t know how to handle them because the situation is not ideal he has feelings for someone else and he’s like my best friend it’s so complicated and its taking its toll on me emotionally. I never really have cared for someone this deeply before and it scares me. I do ask for prayers on this because i feel like my feelings are over the place and I pray to God to remove them but each day they feel stronger . I ask God to show me why is this happening to me. I’m always feeling I’m someone’s second choice I’m never someone’s first I know it sounds like a pity party but I hope whoever reads this can relate to me it’s hard when your feelings over take you sometimes and I’m a very sensitive person I hope whoever is going through something like this just know you are not alone there will be days when it feels like rain and there is no sunshine but the beautiful thing is Christ the greatest love that ever was told is the one person who will never leave you alone. I wrote this poem about my feelings I didn’t have the courage to put it on Facebook how I felt in some ways I guess but I hope whoever this is for know that you are not alone we all have been down this road and its okay to cry and to vent some people may think you are overly sensitive but they can’t tell you about your emotions.
This poem is called Emotional MeSometimes my feelings get in the way of what God wants me to do I need to take a step back and let God lead me throughIt’s so easy to act in my flesh with feelings aching In my heart I have to stay strong in Him and not fall apartThe feelings I have for you run deeper than the flesh I feel our souls are intertwined with each other and if that connection snapped my heart would be brokenSeeking God I ask Him why I have these feelings for you God is not the author of confusion He’s the author of resolutionWe are like twins your soul fits my soul my words fit your words my heart fits your heart and on every beat we are one accordEverything happens for a reason and some things are just for a season but I pray and hope this is for a lifetime but that depends on the author of timeWhen I look at you I don’t just see your face I see your soul I see the beautiful person God is trying to moldI don’t know many people who are so deep and real I just want to have you in my life and have time stand stillSometimes as much as we feel in our heart it hurts because it feels like it’s tearing apart my vision is not God’s vision that’s why I need to pray and let God have His wayI wish I didn’t have feelings for you I want to go inside myself and take them out because I have doubts you feel the same for me too I’m asking God to take these feelings away my flesh and my spirit are conflicted with this complication I keep praying to God for a revelationAt the end of the day God will reveal and show me the way and even if it’s not His vision I will always care and I will move on and keep you in prayer Essence E